last week i watched an author talk by Dr Robin Diangelo, from June 2018, about her recently released (at the time) book White Fragility. i highly recommend watching it and then reading the book. out of all the resources/conversations/discussions i have come across of late, this one has greatly helped me understand the part i have been playing in racism being a white person and the steps i can take to unlearn those bias, and learn how to effectively support anti~racism.
if you are like me and on any given day think "i am not enough, i could have done more" you may well find a lot of wisdom in Sue Bender's trilogy of books, starting with Plain and Simple, followed by Everyday Sacred and ending with Stretching Lessons. so many snippets of wisdom and 'ah ha' moments to be gleaned from her words and what is most interesting to me is, Sue started writing the first book around 30 years ago and yet here we are, still not thinking we are enough.
it seems it is an age old problem. we must do better, try more, continuously be discontent as per societies expectations and what we have been fed from birth. i have so many quotes i have scribbled down from these 3 books but one that i think of daily now is "only kindness will do" and if we learn to be kinder to ourselves and start with saying "i am enough" then surely the ripple effects will go out into the world.
with that all in mind, i now have on loop this offering by Sam Garrett. an offering to Laxmi. if you are feeling overwhelmed by the little voice inside your head telling you, "i am not enough, i do not do enough, i do not have enough" i invite you to listen to Mollie's intro and then sing along ....
"i fly like the birds
i grow like the trees
i choose to live in love
i am joy
i am ease
om sri laxmi mahadevi namaha
i choose no more fear
i choose no more shame
i choose to live in love
i am light
i am grace
om sri laxmi mahadevi namaha"
My Grandfather's Blessings by Rachel Naomi Remen was published around 20 years ago and it is an extraordinary read, as is the author herself. i am nearly at the end of 350+ pages and i believe this will be a book i revisit time and again. i read a chapter or 2 every night before bed and always i find a nugget of gold in there. last night this is the nugget of a paragraph i read and then re~read several times more ...
"In my experience, the ego that has covered over our deepest wisdom does not suddenly release us at the moment when the breath stops. Rather, our habitual ways of being become more and more fragile and begin to crumble around us over weeks or even days; and the buddha seed that they have covered over becomes clearer, stronger, more available. Dying may be a time of intense learning, as painful and as transforming as labor, and in the end we may give birth to ourselves"
this book is very much filled with stories about people dying and this excerpt is written with that subject matter in mind BUT i really truly believe these words are equally fitting for living right now. old systems are dying, ones that should never have been able to exist in the first place and it is going to be painful and messy but by the grace of God, we just may give birth to something so beautiful and so KIND and so JUST, if we just have the courage to start releasing what no longer serves us and blinds us from our true wisdom within.
interested to know more about Rachel Naomi Remen? this fabulous podcast interview discussing the difference between curing and healing is the perfect place to start.